Long time, no post! Warning – it’s gonna be a long one! (scroll down for tl;dr all you none-readers!)
We’re already a month into the new year, so it’s about time I make a post! I had a few ideas for posts building up for a while now but of course I just didn’t get to them. 🙁 One of the things, perhaps the absolute biggest thing, I want to work on in 2017 is getting things done. I have many goals for this year, and this post is going to be a bit of an update and info on that!
So firstly, towards the end of last year, I decided to put my Etsy shop on vacation mode. I just wasn’t feeling it anymore – not having the shop, but rather how I was handling it. I wasn’t making anything with inspiration or even much love, and that was making me feel horrible. I’ve said on more than a few platforms over the past few years that I have been struggling with my creative passion and actually getting started on AND finishing projects. I’m not the girl I once was and it has been so upsetting that I basically feel paralyzed when it comes time to make things. I hate it. It truthfully has been difficult getting myself to do anything, especially in the past few months. I’m not entirely sure why, but once I get home from work usually all I do is shower, eat, waste way too much time on social media and then pass out. How unproductive!
I don’t want to dwell too much on all that, as it will definitely set me into a mode of self-hatred, which is not a fun place to be in. At all. But I have definitely been wanting to do an update on that for all my past customers & followers and hopefully future ones. I feel it’s only fair. Anyway, I’ve been working the past few weeks to come up with ways to just buckle down and start accomplishing things, despite how I may feel on any given day. For example, instead of thinking about making this blog post and letting it marinate for a few weeks, I decide to just post! Raw, real and casual as hell because that’s what I should be doing – just fucking DOING THINGS. Right? Right! I generally am not a huge fan of quotes (most are too out-of-context or black and white – hell, this one probably is too, but….), but “failing to plan is planning to fail.” If I had to pick a favorite quote I guess that would be it! I have such a hard time even remembering what all I need to be doing, so when I don’t even plan basically NOTHING gets done and I end up sitting around twiddling my thumbs. Not good! I’m actually going to try creating a time table for myself to look at after I make this post. I’ve had a back-and-forth type of relationship with time-based schedules in the past but there has to be some kind of middle ground…the time table would be an ideal progression of my days/weeks, but not something I’d have to adhere to strictly. Hopefully allowing myself some leeway will lessen the pressure and I’ll be able to work it.
Related to my productivity (or lack-thereof), is my 2017 planner lineup! At the end of last year I had a list of around 15 planners I was planning to use. Yes, FIFTEEN. LOL. In just the past week I’ve already been cutting planners out because I was forgetting to use them and wasn’t 100% into them. That said…my list is probably still the same length as before, if not longer, BUT the difference is that fewer of them are daily ones that I need to actually plan in. I’m not going to go into detail yet but I can at least say I actually wrote in and remembered to LOOK at my planners this week! WOW. I think the biggest change is that I’m pretty much going back to my “roots” – back to kikki K.! My first #plannergirl planner was the A5 Why Not. Every time I think about my beginnings in the planner world I think of that planner and my very first planner hauls, and all the happiness I felt having something so special and beautiful to use. I have loved my Happy Planners in 2016 but for 2018 I’m thinking I’m going to make a large departure and make kikki K. my main squeeze again LOL. I may or may not have recently purchased a new A5 binder, too…oops! 🙂
To touch on my shop again, I WILL be re-opening but it is obviously not going to be happening mid-late January as we are already in February now ^^;. Midway through January I suddenly had a change of “ideas” and in short, I don’t want to worry about releases and production as much as I was. I still want to get into doing some seasonal things and definitely having more sales (and hey, giveaways! I HAVE SO MUCH SHIT TO SHARE HAHA), but I’m not gonna sweat it about having “lines” or “collections.” If it happens, it happens. If not, oh well. I want my focus for my shop and all my creative endeavours to be rooted in my enjoying the creation process. So, I may not be doing anymore glitter dashboards (which were my most popular items). To be quite frank, I find them boring and uninspired! Anyone can do them! I am WAY more excited about going all the way back to like…2004, the time when I was hella creative. Literally on the computer 16 hours a day making SOMETHING. Drawing all the time. Reading. Writing. That was beautiful. Times were simpler, too, but saying I have work is just a bullshit ass cop-out. Pretty much everyone has work, and more work than me at that. And it’s probably harder and more demanding. I’m seeing plenty of #girlbosses holding down 40+hr a week jobs and hustling hard on their “side” gigs and abso-fucking-lutely KILLING IT. If they can do all that, I should be able to pull myself up and do way better. Y’all are inspiring as fuck, legit.
I think I can touch a little on some of my other personal goals for this year. Those would be:
- Losing (more) weight
- Starting a second degree
- Buying a car
- Leaving my day job!
These are all pretty big and kinda scary goals, but what’s the point in having tiny ones that won’t challenge me to be better every single day? None, I say.
Hrm, other things…I have admittedly been hauling a lot since the start of the holiday season last year. That has got to stop lol. I haven’t been posting everything on my Instagram, but I would like to do more posts both there and here showing how I actually use all the shit I buy. For as many stickers as I have and continue to buy, I could probably do #nowhitespace spreads every week in my Happy Planner at the least (I’m not gonna, though. :P)
TL;DR: Mostly, I’m just ready for my life to be different. On track. I want my old passionate, creative self back. I want to interact more but also waste less time on social media. It usually has a negative effect on me (like making me want to buy ALL the things, or reminding me I am a lonely fucking loser lol). I want to get away from all the things that make me feel yucky and do more of what makes me feel my life has purpose. And I’m gonna re-open my shop, I’m just not sure when. Could be in a week or ten. I just know that when I do, I want it filled with more original and inspired products – no, works of art.
‘Til next time! 😉